Archives For Life Experiences


My Poem of the Day

(08/19/14)

Your Love

Your love

Lifts me up and brings me down

Turns me inside out and backwards

It makes me pull my hair out

It makes me scream and shout

It makes me sleep

It keeps me awake

It makes me laugh

It makes me cry

Sometimes I find myself wondering why

I hold on to a love that makes me ache

Then I realize because

There is no one else

That can make me feel the way that you do

The emptiness that once live inside of me

Has finally slipped away

Every part of me feels alive

I now have you and our life ahead

To look forward to

For the rest of our days

Thank you for

Your Love

Copyright 2014

Your Love©

Felina Silver Robinson


My Poem of the Day

(08/18/14)

This Place I Call Home

At Night when the streets are dimly lit

I walk hesitantly in the middle of the street

Fearful of who or what might lurk within the darkness

I pick up the pace

My breathing gets heavier and heavier

I hear screams in the distance

But maybe they’re not so distant after all

A car drives by and the muffler pops

Sounding just like a gunshot

I run for cover into the next

Set of bushes

Til the car passes and I see no bodies left for all to see

Once the street is left quiet again

I continue my walk home

I’m shaking and my teeth are shattering

I’m thinking to myself as I walk the street

My neighborhood is rated one of the safest around

But in the darkness of the night

Every street looks the same

Those things you can’t see

Are the things that can hurt you

When it’s dark outside

No one wants to open their doors

No one wants to remember when the police come knocking

At their door

But in the light of day

Everyone’s friendly

They shake each others hands

No screaming aside from the kids at play

Happiness is here for the day

So there’s a rush to do

All that needs to be done

Before the night falls again

Here in this place I call home

Copyright 2014

Here In This Place I Call Home©

Felina Silver Robinson

@FelinaSilver


My Poem of the Day

(08/17/14)

A Wish for More Time

I haven’t seen you lately

But my thoughts are always with you

Each day that passes I wish there were more hours in the day

I wish there weren’t so many miles between us

I wish I had spent more time telling you all the things I’ve wanted to say

Now there is no chance for you to know all I had to share

I find myself wondering if you could have ever known

All that I felt for you

All the times I remember

All the days I was thankful to have you in my life

Thankful for all you had done

If I tell you now will you hear me

Will you forgive me for not telling you sooner

Will you watch over me

Will I get to see you again some day

Oh, how I wish I had more time to say all I wanted to say

And to hold you close again

Copyright 2014

A Wish for More Time©

Felina Silver Robinson


My Poem of the Day

(08/16/14)

Soulless Without Her Smile

This morning a man woke up on the wrong side of the bed

He was angry that he didn’t get what he wanted the night before

So he sets out to right his wrong

No breakfast needed

His angry makes him full

No drink

His sweat seeps into his open mouth

His dark and soulless glare sends each passersby running for cover

All fearing what it is that he’s after

His pace quickens as if he’s running out of time

Before he had to return home to prepare for the start of his day

Suddenly he’s where he needed to be

The all night mart at the corner of Elm and Beach St

The girl who had waited on him last night was still there

Her beautiful face was all he could think of

He didn’t even notice all the glances coming his way

Because he had left his house in his bathrobe

And hadn’t even brushed his hair

Oh what a sight he must be

But “Smiling Sarah” as they call her didn’t seem to mind

Once he stood before her she just darted him a big smile

And he thought to himself

Why couldn’t she just have done that last night

He found the nerve to ask her

If she’d like to see him tonight

She gave him a little giggle

Passed him her number and said “I’ll see you later tonight”

Getting what he’d come for

HIs soulless glare was gone

He once again looked human

And became embarrassed by his appearance

And ran home to start his day

Thinking only about the hours until he would get to see

His “Smiling Sarah” at the end of his day

Copyright 2014

Soulless Without Her Smile©

Felina Silver Robinson


My Poem of the Day

(08/15/14)

Oh, The Things You Say To Me

Baby when you bat those big brown eyes my way

I don’t need to hear the words you’ll say

Because I know what each twinkle in your eye is saying

But when you do shoot those soft words my way

They always tell me what I’ve longed to hear you say

You let me know that you’re the only one for me

That you can barely make it through the day

Without thoughts of kissing me

knowing I’ll be waiting by the door when you finally find your way

With your favorite slippers and your favorite bear

And dinner just for two

You tell me that you’ve never had it so good

You don’t know what you’d ever do without me

You remember the first time our eyes met

In the park under the weeping willow

We were reaching for the same dandelion

Hoping to blow for a wish

Little did we know

Our wish had already come true

That moment when we first met

Years go by and we raised our family

Our love has never faltered

And

Oh, those things you still say to me

Send me on my way

To the love I’d have no other way

I’ve been grateful for each and every day

Knowing that there’s no one else that could have ever made me feel this way

Thank you for all the things you still say

Copyright 2014

Oh, The Things You Say To Me©

Felina Silver Robinson


My ThrowBack Thursday Poem and Photo

(08/14/14)

Happy Days

Felina Alicia and Nana Kangas Nov 1997 Felina Alicia and Rose Nov 1997

Days when you wake up knowing

There’s a group of people

Who love you for all that you are

And

All that you’re not

They make you happy when you’re sad

They tell you when you’re wrong not just so they can be right

They look ahead when you can only look back

They give you life when you’re feeling lifeless

Happy Days

On Tap

For you and me

****

Your Friends

****

Your Family

****

Make a pack

****

To keep happy days on tap

At no cost

No ticket needed

And no pass

Just a smile

That will go a mile

As long as you play happy

You can stay happy

Leave all your baggage behind

Come and enjoy our

Happy Days

Copyright 2014

Happy Days©

Felina Silver Robinson

Seth in Tanisha's lap Sep 1997 Seth sitting on moms bed Nov 1997 Felina and Seth June 1997


My Poem of the Day

(08/12/14)

I’m Done!

I hold my life in my very own hands

I have a choice to take it or to leave it

Each day I teeter on the scale of life

Good, Bad

Worthy, Not worthy

Stay, Go

Hello, Goodbye

I struggle with the pros and cons

I struggle with my lack of desire

Each day I want you

But sometimes I feel like I don’t have you

You support me with your words and actions

But sometimes it just doesn’t feel real to me

I put on a happy face

But inside I’m tortured

So much push and pull

So much back and forth

Sometimes I just tire of the effort it takes

To fight my own battles

When deep inside I want to give up

To keep a happy face

I know that even you know

That I’m just not happy

Too much time has come and gone

And

I’m still not where I wanted to be

I’m still not who I wanted to be

I’m still not doing what I wanted to be doing

Do you think they know my secret by now

I’ve tried to hide it now for so long

It will never be revealed from these lips of mine

I will carry it to my grave

Instead you’ll see all that’s on my outer shell

I’ll

Laugh, I’ll Cry

I’ll make you laugh, I’ll make you cry

I’ll give all that I have

I’ll do all that I can do

No matter what

You’ll never see me looking blue

You’ll never know what ails me

I’ll hold your hand

I’ll be your shoulder to cry on

I’ll be where you need me to be

I’ll hold you up in place

But when the light are down low

And

I’m on my own

I’ll be sitting in the dark

Staring out the window

Wondering why things just can’t be different

One of these days

Before you know it

I’m going to take control

And

Then

It will be all over


Copyright 2014

I’m Done!©

Felina Silver Robinson


My Poem of the Day

(08/11/14)

A Final Goodbye

My depression held me prisoner

Alcohol soothed the pain

Alcohol became a problem

Those I love were more important

So drinking was forgotten

But depression still lingered about

Work kept me busy

I was definitely a lucky man

Still something was missing

I tried hard to push it out

But sometimes

No matter what you do

There are somethings that just never get worked out

So I chose my way out

I know I’ll leave you crying

I know you will be disappointed

But my pain was just too unbearable and I just wanted out

I chose to meet my maker

I’m sorry to leave you behind

But if I’m lucky

Someday we’ll meet again

And maybe just maybe

You’ll find a way to forgive me

Until then

I’ll spend my time healing

And begin to feel better

about who and what I am

Goodbye my love

Until we meet again


A Final Goodbye©

This Poem is Dedicated to the memory of Robin Williams

A Man that I will forever look up to. May he now find the happiness that was missing.


My Poem of the Day

From the Voice of Domestic Violence

(08/10/14)

Do You Know What You Mean to Me

I’m grateful that you brought me back from the darker side of life

I was stripped of who I once was

There was no rhyme and no reason

Just a man with power who was in control

He chased away all those who mattered to me

He cut me off from all I once enjoyed

No longer allowed to venture out alone

No phone calls not monitored by him

No trips to the bathroom

Calls at work being certain I was their

Check Ins required with every departure and arrival

I was trapped inside my own private hell

Bruised and beaten by a man claiming love

He said that he owned me

And would take what he wanted

When he wanted

There was no one to stop him

Everyone had gone

Everyone had scattered

Friends I thought I had

Couldn’t, just wouldn’t be bothered

Even knowing what he could do

to me and the children

I had to find freedom

From the monster I married

No one deserves to live in such fear

So when he left on his road trip for work

I changed the lock on the door

And

Sent him packing

No longer did I have to

see him, touch him, love him, be with him

You saved me

You gave me strength to stand up

And become who I once was again

I don’t have the words to tell you what that means to me

Without your care and compassion

I don’t know where or who I would be

You were there when no one else was

You knew without asking what I had been through

You passed no judgement

You just helped me get my life back

No I’m stronger than ever before

All I can do is say “Thank You”

And promise that you’ll never find me there again

Do you know what you mean to me?


Copyright 2014

Do You Know What You Mean To Me?©

From the Voice of Domestic Violence

Felina Silver Robinson


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