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Déjà vu©

By Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2014

 

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Once too often

I have a sense of having been here before

Starting the day the same way

Visiting the same places

The faces I see are often the same

But the voices are different as are the names

Each conversation from beginning to end

All sound so familiar

I feel as though I’m recycling my life

Spanning over days, years, decades and centuries

I’ve seen myself as a slave

I’ve seen myself dying of hunger in a land so far away that it had no name

I’ve seen men hung for glancing at another man’s wife

I’ve seen the evil of hanging the innocent for fear that they were a witch

I’ve seen men dead in trenches

I’ve been in the bowls of deception

I feel unearthed as if to be sent to begin again elsewhere

To try to get it right this time

Someone out there believes in me

They are trusting that I will in fact succeed

So they send me out once again

To meet a goal that I’m not certain I know

Year’s later, I’m not sure what I’ll say

But I’m certain, it will feel just like yesterday

My only hope is that I will somehow still

Get to see you and that you will remember me

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Déjà vu

Déjà vu, from the French, literally means “already seen”,
is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience currently being experienced
has been experienced in the past,
whether it has actually happened or not.


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Just Set Me Free©

By Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2014

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You scold me

You hold me

You mold me

You turn me into something new

Who will I be today

Will I remember where I’ve been

Will I do better this time around

Why must you turn my world upside down

Why must you take away my choices

Why must I be only what you want me to be

I would rather just be me

Please won’t you just set me free

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Do You See Me Now?©

By Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2014

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My eyes have seen a great many things

But as long as I can remember all I’ve wanted is to have you see me

A mother’s love is the only love a child needs

When she has that, she can become anything and everything she’s meant to be

If only you could have seen me the way I needed to be seen

Maybe, I wouldn’t have been so afraid

To reach for all I had hoped for

But I still always worry that I will fail you

That I will still bring you only disappointment

When you’re not looking

I shed a tear for each time you looked

But did not see me

For each time I was hurt and you didn’t seem to care

You always told me that no child of yours is weak

No child of yours has problems

You always said your children were destined for better things

It’s ok to have hopes and dreams for your children

But without love a child feels lost, forgotten and unwanted

You can’t wait until they’re all grown up and you have only hoped for the best

Without you to comfort me or to hear me when I needed to talk

I’ve made my share of mistakes

But I’ve certainly made my share of triumphs

I sometimes think of what might have been

Wishing things had been different

But if things had been different then maybe

I wouldn’t have the people who are now important to me

Those who took the time to talk to me when I needed to talk to them

Who where there to catch me when I fell

Those who hugged me when I triumphed

I hope you can truly see me now

If now you would take the time to hear me when I need you

Maybe there could be forgiveness which is something everyone deserves

Maybe then my children could forgive you too

The children who have never truly known you

For they are mere shadows in your life story

of those meant not to be seen

I’m happy to see

Everyone

Everything

Anytime

Do you see me now?


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The Inner Circle©

By Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2013

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What you’ve grown to know may not be the truth you think you are living

There are things we keep from another to protect us from the things that may hurt us

Don’t look deeper than you need to for the fear of what you may find may be grater than your strength to fight it

You’ll always know what it is felt that you need to know

You’ll always have the strength you need to pull you through the harshest of battle

It is hopeful that your shield will always be able to protect you

You are fortunate to be among the inner circle


 

 

 

Helen Keller

Photograph by Marshall, 1902
IN THE STUDY AT CAMBRIDGE

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The Story of my life©

By Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2013

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I sit here with my head in my lap

Rocking to and fro

Trembling in fear

As to how you will see me

I’m due to read before you

The story of my life

I’m not sure how you will judge me

I wonder if I should care

I’ve been ostracized my entire life

No one has truly seen where I’ve been or how far I’ve come

My trials and tribulations are a part of me

But they don’t define me

My actions define me

The person I’ve become is remarkable

Considering all that’s happened

I watch so many others lose themselves

Never to break out of their shell

Fearing a lack of acceptance

Fearing that there is no place for them

Fearing their own demise

Fearing all that is before them

Fear leaves us with no place to go

Nothing to see

And no one to know

I straighten out my legs

I stand tall

I wash my face

Clear my throat

And I’m on my way

To share with you

The story of my life

 


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Eyes as Full of the Ocean©

By  Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright© 2013

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Eyes as full as the ocean

Don’t close your eyes to the pain

A heart of gold

Let your heart heal the wounded

A soul like no other

Let your soul guide you through

You are open to forgiveness

Traveling through time

Lifetimes over

Nothing has changed

We see the same loss

We know the same devastation

There are some who are forgiving

But more that are unforgiving

We live in the land of hope

But you only have hope

If you feel hope

You have to want things to be

To be different than they were

Every time before

In centuries past

In centuries ahead

Make the change

To begin again

To give our children

and their children

The chance to carry on

To become the things

We could never be

To do the things that we could never do

Through these eyes as full as the ocean

I can see all there is

and all there was

and this time

I want things to be different

Take away the storms that kill

Take away the guns that end lives

Take away the words that send young ones to their deaths

Take away the racism that separate the people

Take away the poverty that leaves those begging

Take away the shame that keep people hidden

Give everyone Eyes as Full as the Ocean

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Hate Is A Useless Emotion©

Felina Silver Robinson

Copyright 2013

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Hate is ugly,
Hate is mean,
Hate is a waste of your time.

When people hate,
They often get hurt,
They hurt someone who doesn’t ask to be hurt
Often the hurt leads to death,
Once death occurs, there is no longer life…
For the person who died or the person who survives

To survive this life,
Replace hate with a form of acceptance,
You don’t have to like all that you, know, see, hear, or do,
Come to terms with all things,
Give everything its own place, and level of Importance,
Just leave hate where it belongs,
Buried in the ground where it is out of sight, and
Out of mind

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