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 My ThrowBack Thursday

Poem of the Day

(07/31/14)


102800 Seth Alicia and the gang

Crazy Beautiful

When we were young

We could be who we wanted to be

Do what we wanted to do

We made faces that only a mother could love

Our imaginations were endless

No one judged us

We enjoyed endless hours of fun

laughing and dancing it up

Oh what we would all give to be there again

Where each day was mindless and timeless

Free and on the run to nowhere

We were all

Crazy Beautiful©

Copyright 2014

Felina Silver Robinson


My Poem of the Day

(07/30/14)

Love Hurts

When your partner doesn’t hear you

Not because they can’t
But because they won’t
When you know you deserve better
 But end up with what you see
Is what you get
You are the glue that holds everything together
If you’re not doing it
Nothing will get done
If you’re not buying it
You don’t get what you need
Forget about what you want
When he’s angry
He lashes out at everyone
Especially you
His apologies are few and far in-between
When they do come
They are lacking sincerity and remorse
You try to disguise your pain
But it gets harder each time
As time goes on you become nothing
But a hardened shell
Your own family finds you hard to recognize
No longer do you wear the smile they became so accustomed to seeing
This time your heart seems uncertain if
It can forgive
If it wants to forgive
If it will forgive
Love
Alone
Isn’t the answer to what is broken
In your love
Sometimes
Love just hurts
Sometimes
Hard choices must come about
Sometimes
In the end
Love may just not be worth it
Copyright 2014
Love Hurts©
Felina Silver Robinson
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My Poem of the Day

(07/29/14)

An Unrequited Love

There once was a man

who when he was a boy

Had ideas of what he hoped his

love would grow to be when he was of the dating age

He watched the love his parents shared with one another

He watched couples walk the streets hand in hand

With their eyes locked

Their looks made you feel if you were invading a special and private moment

He couldn’t wait til he was older

So that he too could have that look

With a woman meant just for him

And share those feelings with a woman he would come to love

At age 29 settled in his work

Still close to his family

He had found love

Someone who shared the same direction

The same views on life, love and family

He now felt it was time

That they were ready

To buckle down

Join forces and get married

On a tropical Hawaiian Island he asked his true love for her hand in marriage

He was taken aback by her pause and hesitation

She replied that it just dawned on her that this was never what she truly wanted

She never set out to end up married

For now her career was her focus

Love would have to take a back seat

And said if you’re not willing

It’s time to go our separate ways

And with that his love was ended

He returned home to his family with his heart-broken

His love now unrequited

Where would he go

What would he do

But now it would become his focus

No more sitting back waiting for love to find him

He would open his heart

And open his mind

To see where love might find him

Always knowing that love is worth the time and the wait


Copyright 2014

An Unrequited Love©

Felina Silver Robinson

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My Poem of the Day

July 28, 2014

Tornado

This morning when I woke up

The sky was bright and cheery

As the moments passed

I heard the winds talking

Gathering up their strength

The sun ran for cover

The sky turned a mystical gray

There was a stillness in the air

Suddenly there was a chill to the air

Things outdoors started to toss about

The rain poured down forcefully

Trees ripped from the ground flying about like lost umbrellas

Landing on houses and cars

Houses are obliterated in seconds

People run for shelter unknowing of their fate

Screams of voices without faces

I close my eyes tightly and cover my ears

My hearts pounding

My bodies shaking

I’m counting the seconds that might be my last

As I start to pray

The warmth of the sun starts to heat upon my face

There’s no longer the sound of the beating wind

Things no longer fly about the sky

I’m sad to say things no longer look the same

Once I bravely open my eyes

Some houses made it

Houses no longer have an address

Houses that are now just a shell

Trees lay flung about like scattered bricks

An oil tanker sits in the river like a soggy pillow

So much lost

Not much will ever be the same

Another clean-up starts

Send your prayers for miracles

and helping hands

Maybe together

We can all begin again

Bye hungry Tornado

Sorry you felt the need to come our way


Copyright 2014 Tornado©

By Felina Silver Robinson


The Voice of Autism:

My Topsy Turvy Life

I wish for two days in a row that didn’t always start at one extreme and end at another

I’m happy

I’m sad

I’m mad

I’m nice

It’s not my fault

Some people just can’t be nice to me

Don’t they understand that I have feelings just like they do?

When they say something mean to me

It seems to hurt more

Like they just really want to see me cry

I don’t like crying

I don’t think anyone does

It makes me think of all the other bad times I’ve had

I want to think about all the good times

Don’t get me wrong

I have lots of happy thoughts

About

The time I spend with my family

When we go places

When we sit and watch funny things on TV

When I get to help bake

Or help in the garden

I love when we travel

My life is so topsy-turvy

Sometimes good

Sometimes bad

I wish I could read everyone’s minds

So I could really understand why they need to pick on me

I wish I could make people see that it’s not right to hurt anyone

I wish I could make people live like I do

And Maybe

They would never be mean to me or anyone else again

I wonder if their lives are topsy-turvy

And if that is why

They are so mean to me

I wish they knew that it would just be better to be my friend

I know then

My life wouldn’t be so topsy-turvy

Copyright 2014

The Voice of Autism:

My Topsy Turvy Life©

Felina Silver Robinson


Oh, the peace I still find in my garden

I wake in the morning to gaze upon my garden

The peace I’ve always felt still remains

No matter the pain from what ails me

A glance at my garden soothes me

I think of all I’ve done and what still needs to be done

My tosses about plans and ideas

There’s such an excitement that comes with each thought

Sometimes tattered and torn from the harsh cold winter

Sometimes wilting from the heat of the sun

But when all is right and the sun isn’t choking the life out of my flowers

What you see in my garden brings a certain calmness

A peace and serenity that is desired by all

It’s the way I like to both start and end my day

Oh, how I just love the peace found in my garden

Copyright 2014 Oh, the peace I still find in my garden© Felina Silver Robinson


There’s A Nightmare Under My Pillow

When you lay your head down to sleep

You close your eyes

And

There’s a smile on your face

As you head off to dream land

But under my pillow I’m not so lucky

Because every time I lay my head down

I close my eyes

And try as hard as I can

To head off to my dream land

But there are no sweet dreams for me

Because, There’s a nightmare under my pillow

And it won’t go away

I turn right

I turn left

I move up

I move down

I open my eyes

I close my eyes

It doesn’t seem to matter

My nightmare is there when I close my eyes

It’s there when I open them

And Now I dread the night-time

Because I know it’s never going to get any better

My Nightmare must be a punishment

For what, I don’t know

I know I have to spend some time

Working it out or I’ll never be able

to lay my head upon my pillow

Close my eyes

and

Sleep

Oh how I long to visit my long-lost dream land

Maybe it’s just my pillow

Next time

Maybe, I’ll just borrow yours

Copyright 2014 There’s A Nightmare Under My Pillow© Felina Silver Robinson


My ThrowBack Thursday

Poem of the Day

(07/24/14)

A Family through and through

The kids and Nicole - memories 07-24-14

Mommy,

Auntie

Oldest Daughter – First Generation

Middle Child (Daughter) – First Generation

Only Son – First Generation

Oldest Daughter (Twin) – Second Generation

Middle Daughter (Twin) – Second Generation

Youngest Daughter – Second Generation


There once was a young woman

Single as could be

She met a man she loved who gave her the gift of a daughter

One day he was there and one day he wasn’t

But she was still there tending to their daughter

with the help of her youngest sister who was proud to be an Auntie

The years pass and the woman marries

When happy no more she left the place she called home

Painting her new home she falls to the floor from fainting

A trip to the doctor tells her she’s to again be a proud mother

and then came the gift of another daughter

what a beautiful gift

Alone in a strange place

They had now become the three amigos

Sad and lonely she returns home to the town she will forever love

More years pass she finds love again

She marries and is given the gift of a child

This time she would bear her only son

Sadly two years later her husband passes

She’s alone again naturally

But she’s not truly alone

She has three beautiful children

She wonders if she’ll ever find love again

One day she finds herself a trucker

and once again she marries

Having tied her tubes years ago

She thinks she will never have the gift of children again

Someone else lets her know she’s yet a mother again

To her shock she finds she’s having twins

and low and behold she has more daughters as cute as can be

and after two more years she has her last gift and it’s again a daughter

She ties her tubes one last time

and her tree is complete

But sadly her marriage again fell victim and she and her tree of children were on their own again, naturally

Of course she wasn’t meant to be alone

But who was out there? Would she ever truly find her forever love?

One day at play in the park with her kids

The love of her life stops by

She dreamed of him as a little girl

Delivered newspapers to his family home

But years passed and they were never free at the same time

And now they were both free

And what was truly meant to be

Could begin

And she finally found her forever love and they married

Now they are

A Family through and through

Happily blended ever after

Copyright 2014 A Family through and through© Felina Silver Robinson


The calm of the Summer night

a thickness to the air

with a hint of a struggling breeze

the airy blue night sky with twinkling stars so bright

it gives me pause to wonder

if the twinkles are the hearts of all the souls lost

or the hopes of all the dreamers

I sit and spill out my own hopes and dreams

to a sky that may have no answers

to a sky that has no voice

but its warmth and friendliness makes

you think of it as an old friend

One that you have as your confidant

No worries that it will tell your secrets

or judge you when it doesn’t like what it hears

With every twinkle comes

the feel of acceptance and a sign of hope for things to come

I look forward to my old friend

The calm of the summer night

Copyright 2014 The calm of the summer night© Felina Silver Robinson


Idols

When I was young I didn’t have much

Not because we were poor

Because we weren’t

Not because no one cared

Because everyone did

It was because my parents wanted to teach me

That there are many more among us that truly have nothing

We have each other

We have our neighbors

We have our church

We have our memories

We have all that we need

When I was young

My idols could be found on TV

My idols were my neighbors

My idols were my friends

My idols were my family

Now many of them have passed

The shows have come and gone

My friends have moved away

And my family, those that remain

are mostly scattered about

So my idols are now my children and my husband and the family that remains

My idols are

The children of the world that will sculpt our future

Those who are hard at work

Those that are surviving

Those who are waiting to be noticed

Those who are waiting for help

Those who are fighting for their lives

Idols come in all shapes and sizes

Idols come

And

Idols go

But we must go on living

Little do you know

You too are someones Idol

Copyright 2014 Idols© Felina Silver Robinson