By Felina Silver Robinson
This morning I was sad to hear that Dr. Michael Davidson died yesterday at the hands of Stephen Pasceri, of Millbury because his mother, Marguerite Pasceri, died after Dr. Davidson had performed surgery on her. A childs love of a parent, especially a mother, can be as strong as an individual’s will to live. When you take that away from someone they often lose the will to go on, feeling as though they are invisible. Their reality is obviously tainted as was that of Stephen Pasceri. So when I sit down to dinner tonight I will again pray for both families and will hope that everyone can move past this traumatic incident without further loss. Life does go on for those who want to live it.
I start grateful that my twins made it to school today and we actually got all three girls out of the house early and quite happy. It’s the small things in life that actually matter. As I continue my morning chores, I think about the fact that people don’t seem to truly realize the value of their lives as well as the lives of others. It deeply saddens me that only in times of tragedy or in a convenient PR move or moment that they reach out to those suffering or in need of companionship. I further started to wonder why people need to be dying, or rich to meet someone they admire or look up to. I know some may think why is she spending her time thinking about such things? I do because it matters to me. Really, things that make others happy matter to me. I tell my own kids every day not to “waste time fighting about things that don’t matter or that you know won’t change, that life is short and the way they are behaving at the moment isn’t the way they are going to want to be remembered.” I always tell them that “they should put all their energy into being the best they can be as themselves and whether others like it or not, they will find themselves happy with what they have done. You can’t make yourself happy based on the desires of others.”
Chores are out-of-the-way for the time and I go onto exercise. 6,100 steps, thanks again to HBO and Boardwalk Empire, Season 5, Episode 2 this time. It’s truly amazing how the pain goes unnoticed when you don’t have to focus on it. I tell my children to focus on the happiest memory they can when they know they have to endure pain. It truly helps. I truly believe that people would be so much happier if they didn’t center their lives around the fact that they are in pain. No one can live like that. There is no fulfillment in that at all.
I finally remember to schedule a couple of much-needed appointments. I have a terrible habit of putting things of my own personal needs on hold because I’m obviously a caretaker to everyone else, leaving myself by the wayside. It’s my New Year’s resolution to try to do a better job of taking care of me, which is why I’m making a concerted effort to exercise more. I might be being a little hard on myself as I did just have knee surgery less than two months ago, and the injury was what kept me from exercising. However in my mind, that is no excuse and I have always lived off of the premise that there is no gain without a little pain. It’s hard to release yourself from childhood memories meant to guide you through life. What’s important, is that I’m on track now. I just hope that I can keep up the good work. I’m definitely motivated, that’s for sure.
Well, it’s time to prepare for a meeting, after which I can get to writing for another day. Until we meet again…Thanks for stopping by.
By Felina Silver Robinson
I start my day off the same way every day. I set my goals a little higher than the day before, hoping for better things all the time. Today slightly different being Tuesday and the day that the milkman comes to make his weekly delivery. It’s nice to get farm fresh items when you can.
Today a stomach bug decided to visit my 14-year-old twin daughters so they get an extra day off from school. The 12-year-old was slightly off, but no fever, or anything that was able to keep her home for the day so she went on her way. It’s morning as usual from then on. But chose to do better on today’s exercises and beat yesterday’s step count of 3,914 and therefore finishing at 5,507 steps. I have to thank HBO and Boardwalk Empire, Season 5, Episode 1, for distracting me while I burned my calories. It’s definitely helpful to have something to take your mind off whatever pain you might be feeling. As per Jane Fonda: “No pain, no gain.”
After completing some morning chores, ready to begin blogging a tad bit earlier today, I stick my head out the front door for a breath of fresh air before taking a seat at the computer. I notice the neighbors dog getting her regular door-to-door shampoo and trim when suddenly overhead helicopters begin to hover overhead. Two minutes after sitting at my desk, I get a flash report from CBS news and the ABC news that there has been a shooting at the Brigham and Women’s Hospital.This hospital mind you is literally a 10 minute walk from my house if that. Thoughts race through m mind praying that it is no one I know. Then I pray that it has nothing to do with a terrorist act. Then I realize that it is a contained situation despite the fact that a victim lies with life threatening injuries and the shooter chose to commit suicide. My heart goes back to normal, but the helicopters remain. My heart goes out to the families, victims and all else involved in this situation. This was truly a senseless incident.
This incident is part of the constant reminder that violence doesn’t stop, Violence finds a home anywhere. You just hope and fray that it doesn’t find you or anyone you care about. We all must remain vigilant and aware of our surroundings, behave appropriately and make rational and sound decisions, thinking before we act on every situation.
I take a break and bag some food for my eldest daughter for a parents job is never done. Times are hard and we must all find a way to help take care of our own.
My hope for the rest of the day is that nothing else tragic occurs and that everyone kind peace within themselves to move forward in a healthy way.
…and the writing continues another day.
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